Time.. I believe I’ve done a post before about it. But once again it’s on my mind.
I think time is one of the scariest things if we’re being honest. There’s a quote in the movie Fox and the Hound and it’s where Big Mama (The owl) tells the Fox “Darlin’ forever is a long time, and time has a way of changing things.” Now, granted that doesn’t mean it always turns out bad but.. there is always that possibility and fear. And it doesn’t even have to mean long period of times like years either it could be months, days, weeks etc. I’ve definitely had this experience a few times that definitely did not feel like the best changes they were more along whiplash type changes that happened so fast it took a bit for it to even sink in what had happened and when it did it freaking and boy it
S U C K E D.
Caring about someone very much, very deeply, in a way you haven’t with someone else before and they cared about you as well one day then the next drop it, lose feelings and go MIA is… I don’t even know how to explain it other then it was like feeling version of whiplash.
Where once a girl was to scared to stand up to people who tried walking all over her for the most of her life… at age 20 she now has the courage to stand and say NO.
One day she’s fine, happy dancing, singing, being silly and annoying… The next she’s being driven to Children’s Primary because her blood sugar was 474 and her body was trying to go into a coma to where she and your parents were gone for a week while you handled the house.
Beginning of makeup stages… Blue eye shadow all. over. Now a few years later can do cut crease and mostly even wing eyeliner.
One day a annoyingly positive, shy, very insecure, girl the next time you look in the mirror she’s more comfortable in her skin, slightly more confident, negative in her personal life but positive for others, young women with so much baggage.
Long distance relationships where they’re gone all the time – What if they lose feelings? What if they find someone else? What if they stop missing me? What if they’re tired of me wanting as much time with just them as I possibly can get? What if the distance drives us apart? What if they can’t take this anymore through time?
Time does have a way of changing things and it’s scary not knowing how it will change things. And sometimes it’s hard not to ask the What IF question but it can honestly hurt things and relationships to keep focusing on the what ifs than the what is or what are.
I’m not saying I do this all the time but I do try not to.. I just sometimes lose. haha But that’s part of life is time, unknown, losing battles and or wining them as well as Change.
I think that’s why most people are scared of time is simply because most often Time equals change in some shape and or form.
And it’s O K A Y to be scared because Everyone gets scared. We just can’t let being scared win and keep us from things because in the end everything will be Okay. ❤