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Pills, pains, and closet’s.

                 **** DISCLAIMER****

I am NOT encouraging drug use or alcohol to try and fix problems, or to try and stop pains etc. Don’t do drugs, don’t take pills unless needed and be wise!

We all take pain meds for when our body’s are Hurting whether it be from broken bones, torn muscles, cramps, soreness, ect. And after taking them they give some relief from the pain. 

I sometimes wish there was a magic pill that could just take the pains from inside away. But we can’t really numb the pains that are inside like a broken heart, broken trust, being left, betrayed, depressed, etc. I mean some people try with drinking  or drug usage but after the drunkenness and the high wear off the pains are still there and they live in this cycle of trying to forget or numb the pain but when they Wake up its there and they try it again. It doesn’t fix things in a way it just kind of makes it worse in a way. Because your not fixing the problem your just prolonging it in a sense. Some people tell me I don’t get it why they do it and I say that isn’t correct. I have some things to I’d give anything to forget or numb the pain But I know that drugs and alcohol won’t fix them and if they do  it’s for the short term and the drugs especially can come with a huge list of horrible side affects or payments for such short term of temporary fixes. 

You cant just forget about the pain or pretend it isnt there that doesnt work because as in the FIOS movie line says 

 “Pain demands to be felt.”

 You can’t keep trying to push it into a closet and forget about it. Like the  “I can’t see you so you cant see me” thing that doesnt work with this. Lol The more you try to shove bad things in your minds closet and use that rule It’s just like the outcome of when my closet had doors and I’d stuff stuff in there and quickly close the door. When you try to  shove the bad stuff  in and quickly close the door it may bust open and everything comes out on top of you at once and that’s just one giant mess. (Aka. So much overload of crap normally leads to meltdowns. Well with me anyways.) So ignoring pain just comes back to get you. I really recommend finding better ways to deal with things. You will heal sometimes it takes longer then others but eventually you will. The atruggles just not to become bitter or hard after being hurt and healed. 

I personally prefer to try and watch Disney happy movies, listen to music partially stuff I can relate to right there and then and some to per me up a bit, read, write and eat some French fries or play with makeup. Do something you enjoy because you need to enjoy and make something good to help you when you feel like crap. 

And also  remember if you have true friends they’re there for you and will help however they can. 

Life’s Roads.

1476411943652.jpgLife’s adventure can sometimes be a smooth highway road with just a few bumps on a beautiful sunny day where you can have the windows down and happy tunes playing and sometimes it’s a highway with potholes that rattle you’re vehicle and make things sound like they’re breaking, in a blizzard where you can hardly see a foot in front of you and your vehicle is wanting to slide off the road and your feeling like you are or might lose control.

Life’s roads are so unpredictable. You could be one of the best drivers and always prepared but an animal pops out or another driver hit’s you and you lose control  and crash.

Sometimes you don’t know which road’s to take. To keep going straight, turn right, or turn left. Sometimes passengers on your trip get off and sometimes you get new ones or you go solo.  However It always sucks when you lose people you care about whether it’s they got off, left, got lost, or are gone. It always hurts especially when those who you thought would always be there with you, leave. Sometimes though, you may have started out both going to the same destination but in time it changes and you both need to take different roads.  And that’s okay. It’s also Okay that it sucks cause that’s life. But instead of trying to forget the memories of the trip try and remember them and keep them they don’t have to be something bad. And sometimes you will both meet up again later on. You can’t know life’s road it doesn’t come with instructions or a map on what’s going to happen. You just have to go with what happens and make the most of it and keep going even if it sucks or you need to take a small pit stop break to re gather yourself or rest. It’s Okay.

 

TBH. . .

To be Honest. . .

Things have taken a turn recently. I can’t sleep or go to sleep till about 3-4 am. And even when I do I don’t sleep well or have a restful sleep because I feel awake even though I’m sleeping.  I feel sick or like my body’s trying to fight getting sick. I have no motivation really to do anything besides watch Netflix and eat snacks.

Pretty discouraged with things in life. I have yet to find a job, but I know leaving the past one was the best choice.. I don’t know what direction I’m supposed to be going in or what direction I’m going to be taking or should take. I’ve lost people. I’m hurt. My room is a small mess again. haha And I turn 20 next Monday. Exactly a week from today, and that’s kinda scary. I’m not ready for this amount of commitment to adulting yet. haha

And I’m stumped. I don’t entirely know what to post, what videos to make, where to start in cleaning my room, or life. But I am going to try and be more positive.. Or at least try and see more positive in life.  Because I’m alive, I’m breathing, I can see, I can hear, I have almost lived 20 years and I am very blessed.

Life is full of adventures. Some are down hill and fun where we put our hands in the air and yell at the top of our lungs or we dance around while blasting fun loud music. While some are up hill where we’re panting for every breath of air we take or we’re laying in bed or writing while listening to a soft quiet playlist. Either one is an adventure some we just may enjoy more than others but both get us to the places we need to be. Right now I’m sitting on my bed while listening to my Netflix, books, and chill Spotify playlist with my pet cat Cutie.  I may try and clean my room a little bit tonight or I may try and go to bed because my stomach’s cramping and I don’t feel well. Lol

Wherever you are in the world, whatever time it is, whatever you’re going through whether it’s a good adventure , not so great, or bad adventure… Know that you always have a friend here for you. Know that it’s a bad day, week or month not a bad life. And that everything will be Okay eventually and you aren’t alone. ❤

                               “And then I realized, Adventures are the best way to learn.”

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