Hello! Hope your day went well! Mine was pretty good and I will definitely feel it tomorrow. 😉
I decided to actually do it. I went to Yoga Class tonight! I was worried about going. And I almost backed out. However I told the instructor I would go so there was no way I would be backing out after that. I was worried that people would stare, make fun or I’d fall flat on my face or be expected to be able to do everything perfectly. But A. the instructor is amazing and so kind and all my fears were not true. Also note I didn’t fall flat on my face even though at some point I felt like it! haha 🙂 Next time I will definitely not wear jeans in the class however. lol! (I did take leggings just couldn’t find the bathroom to change and was like eh… they’re not super un comfortable jeans.. YOLO.)
Somethings were pretty hard or my body didn’t want to go that direction or bend and I had no idea on somethings what I was doing. But it was really relaxing (When not worrying if I can keep doing the dog pose without collapsing. xD) enjoyable and rewarding. I really liked the fact there was like only 3 other people besides e and the instructor tonight also. (I enjoy smaller groups.) I most certainly will be going again as well as trying to practice some of the poses at home. I’m blessed to be able to have a class that is by donation, super chill and that I know the very sweet instructor who helped me not feel as nervous and was encouraging as well as a friend. 🙂
So one thing I can cross off my bucket list and didn’t let fear keep me from it! 😀
To be Honest. . .
Things have taken a turn recently. I can’t sleep or go to sleep till about 3-4 am. And even when I do I don’t sleep well or have a restful sleep because I feel awake even though I’m sleeping. I feel sick or like my body’s trying to fight getting sick. I have no motivation really to do anything besides watch Netflix and eat snacks.
Pretty discouraged with things in life. I have yet to find a job, but I know leaving the past one was the best choice.. I don’t know what direction I’m supposed to be going in or what direction I’m going to be taking or should take. I’ve lost people. I’m hurt. My room is a small mess again. haha And I turn 20 next Monday. Exactly a week from today, and that’s kinda scary. I’m not ready for this amount of commitment to adulting yet. haha
And I’m stumped. I don’t entirely know what to post, what videos to make, where to start in cleaning my room, or life. But I am going to try and be more positive.. Or at least try and see more positive in life. Because I’m alive, I’m breathing, I can see, I can hear, I have almost lived 20 years and I am very blessed.
Life is full of adventures. Some are down hill and fun where we put our hands in the air and yell at the top of our lungs or we dance around while blasting fun loud music. While some are up hill where we’re panting for every breath of air we take or we’re laying in bed or writing while listening to a soft quiet playlist. Either one is an adventure some we just may enjoy more than others but both get us to the places we need to be. Right now I’m sitting on my bed while listening to my Netflix, books, and chill Spotify playlist with my pet cat Cutie. I may try and clean my room a little bit tonight or I may try and go to bed because my stomach’s cramping and I don’t feel well. Lol
Wherever you are in the world, whatever time it is, whatever you’re going through whether it’s a good adventure , not so great, or bad adventure… Know that you always have a friend here for you. Know that it’s a bad day, week or month not a bad life. And that everything will be Okay eventually and you aren’t alone. ❤
“And then I realized, Adventures are the best way to learn.”
I mentioned before that my sister had been diagnosed with Type 1 Diabetes early this summer. But I didn’t say how much that had made an impact on hers, mine, and my entire family’s lives. Before I get into this for those who don’t really know what type 1 diabetes is here a link to read: Type 1 Diabetes
The day we found out she had Diabetes was crazy, scary, hard, scary, and overwhelming. She ended up having to go to a Hospital because of how high her sugar was. My parent’s and her stayed at the hospital from the day they got there (Monday) through Friday. That was the longest roughest weeks I’ve ever had or any of us have had I think.
Probably one of the hardest things was hearing my parent’s voice crack on the phone from trying not to cry, watching my little sister leave to go to a hospital, know her body was trying to go into a coma, having to stay behind and wake up not having her little self say “Good morning Erin” before I had coffee in my system. But the greatest thing was when she was home, I could physically hug her tell her I loved her and see her sunshine, happy, hyper self in the morning watching Tv on the couch with her stuffed animals.
And the whole thing taught and reminded me how Special the little things are in life. One of my worst fears is loosing my family, and we could have lost her. But we didn’t. It’s easy for us to take for granted our friends, our health, siblings and family in general. We tend to think “Tomorrow, I will do this or that..” But sometimes we don’t have tomorrow. It’s not a promise it’s a gift.
Now this doesn’t mean she never gets on my nerves. She’s my little sister, of course she will! But I cherish moments even more now than I did with her before. Like yesterday morning my little sister made me coffee, put a strawberry and some yogurt bites in a cupcake liner and wrote a little note for me and put it on my stand by my door.. It’s the little things in life that mean the most and can be the biggest blessings and most magical memories. I don’t know what I’d do without our little sunshine Katie bug. ❤