If you want to know someone you should ask them what their favorite song is, what song means the most to them and which song they relate to the most. People who love music don’t just love it for the sounds but for the power of the words. Same reason some people may love poetry and beautiful words because the lyrics, and words could put it better then ourselves. We sometimes find bits and pieces of ourselves in songs and quote or even something that memories are linked to and can come flooding back from hearing one song. You can remember how you felt, where you were, what was going on, who you were with etc not as powerful as smell but it can be pretty powerful still.
A song that does that to me is one a friend told me to listen to when I was the lowest I had ever been and I couldn’t explain how I was feeling or thinking to people but when I tried with them they got it and understood. The songs called Paralyzed by NF. (If your not into a little rap or darker songs you will not like it.) It explained exactly how I felt and I fell in love with it. So now when I think of that time around August/ October and the lowest points of the lowest, where I was so unhappy, so broken spirited, loss of hope and did good if I only cried 2-3 times a day, to the one night late after work sitting in my Jeep after balling for 3-4 hours debating whether it was worth it to keep trying or to just end it. This song takes me back to then especially that night. In it’s own way it helped me through that time as well as some other songs. “When your happy you listen to the music when your sad you listen to the lyrics. ”
Songs can make your feel even worse and more depressed, Sometimes they destroy your motivation , sometimes they build it, sometimes they boost your mood, sometimes they put you in the pits of despair and sometimes they can help you out of the pit. Songs aren’t always “Just songs” sometimes they’re someones friend, or voice they can’t bring themselves to use themselves.
Musics a powerful thing and you can tell a lot about someone by what they’re listening to, and song’s they love the most. If you choose to ask someone what they’re songs are.. I highly suggest you really take the time to really think about the words either look up the lyric video for the songs or the lyrics themselves. 🙂
What’s your favorite song? Leave it in the comments below and I will listen to it ❤
Yes, yes, I admit I enjoy watching/reading those chick flick happy ending, sappy, fairy tale sometimes corny stories and movies. But so many girls get set that’s how they wan’t a relationship to be like or find a “Perfect guy” that says”You’re so perfect you don’t have a single flaw.” like in the movies. I however am not one of those. At one point early teen years yeah, sure. But now, I don’t want you to put me under a beauty filter and call me perfect because I am no where near perfect. I have so many faults, flaws, scars, problems, etc.. I want someone who knows and will tell me I’m not perfect but they still love or care about me. I don’t want to have promises made that are 100% chance at some point they will broken like for instance “I will never hurt you.” Because yes, you will at some point get hurt or hurt the other it’s just bound to happen because we are all humans who make mistakes.
I don’t want Perfect I want real, honesty, loyalty, Effort, someone who pushes me to be a better version of myself than I was yesterday. I’d rather have either a dork in tin foil or a guy in blue jeans boots and covered in dirt or grease then a prince. I know I’m a bit of an odd duck. haha But I’ve also loved the wrong people, people who didn’t deserve it. I’ve been burned more time’s than things went well. And through all those hard, terrible and sometimes okay “relationships” It’s brought me to here. I did at one point settle for I wouldn’t even call some guys more like boys. I settled for so much less than I should have and I did at times pay the price for settling my standards that low. And also after having a glimpse at a entire beautiful universe.. why would I settle for just the small earth? (May not make sense to you but it does in my lil ol brain of mine. haha) So I no longer want to let my standards get that low, I don’t want to settle for boys or being treated a belittling way. Now sometimes do I get kinda small likes for guys? Yeah, but at the end of the day or even then I ask myself would I honestly want to date them or marry them? If the answer is no then I try and just get over it and focus on something else.. Like Fictional Characters such as the Flash or Luke from The longest Ride. haha!
So these are just some of the late night thoughts that have been going on through my head for a little while now.. But I hope you all have had a wonderful weekend ❤
Hello! Hope your day went well! Mine was pretty good and I will definitely feel it tomorrow. 😉
I decided to actually do it. I went to Yoga Class tonight! I was worried about going. And I almost backed out. However I told the instructor I would go so there was no way I would be backing out after that. I was worried that people would stare, make fun or I’d fall flat on my face or be expected to be able to do everything perfectly. But A. the instructor is amazing and so kind and all my fears were not true. Also note I didn’t fall flat on my face even though at some point I felt like it! haha 🙂 Next time I will definitely not wear jeans in the class however. lol! (I did take leggings just couldn’t find the bathroom to change and was like eh… they’re not super un comfortable jeans.. YOLO.)
Somethings were pretty hard or my body didn’t want to go that direction or bend and I had no idea on somethings what I was doing. But it was really relaxing (When not worrying if I can keep doing the dog pose without collapsing. xD) enjoyable and rewarding. I really liked the fact there was like only 3 other people besides e and the instructor tonight also. (I enjoy smaller groups.) I most certainly will be going again as well as trying to practice some of the poses at home. I’m blessed to be able to have a class that is by donation, super chill and that I know the very sweet instructor who helped me not feel as nervous and was encouraging as well as a friend. 🙂
So one thing I can cross off my bucket list and didn’t let fear keep me from it! 😀
“Feel the fear and do it anyways.”
While I was watching one of my Absolute favorite Youtubers aka. Kalyn Nicholson she said this quote in one of her videos and it really impacted me.
I’m someone who is scared. Scared to do things that I want to do, wish to do, etc. Partially from over thinking but just because it’s also hard for me to leave my comfort zone especially if so alone. It’s scary to do something you’ve never done before especially if there’s no one with you to do it with. Something about that just makes things (to me) seem a little more terrifying. However, since last year my goal has been to push myself out there out of my comfort zone. I have succeeded in somethings such as getting my permit and license, getting a job, quitting a job, starting Youtube, etc. However I want to try and do so even more and to try and conquer my fears and to use the fear towards doing things. Such as trying Yoga classes with a friend, a small road trip by myself maybe, trying a totally new food, who knows. But I’m not only going to love, admire and aspire to this quote I wan’t to apply it. So, this quote is my like, “Life” quote. 🙂
I’m someone who has a very, very and I mean very... bad memory and train of focus. Shocking, I know especially for being a girl. 😉 haha So, I write things on my arms. (Yes, I know it’s not good for me etc..Still do it though. lol) It helps me with reminders and encouragements especially doing hard times. Sometime’s it’s quotes, phrases, lyrics or symbols and I wrote among some other things this quote. ❤
I hope you all have a wonderful night and don’t let fear stop you ❤
It’s up! My first video for Weds on Adventure Is Out there! It’s not the best video quality, for some reason there’s this weird sound I couldn’t get to go away and I was talking quietly because I filmed it when everyone was in bed asleep BUT it is up! And I’m excited to get this going. 😀 Here’s the link if you would like to check it out: Over thinking// Midnight Talks
So my being my deep thinking self I was pondering on some beautiful quotes I found on Pinterest that I think go really well together in a sense..
“You’re a rose, be with someone who isn’t afraid of your thorns.” -r.h. Sin
“Light is easy to love. Show me your darkness.” R.Queen
We all have our own thorns and darkness and not everyone can understand, love or touch us because of them. Either they don’t know how to handle someone with such thorns for fear of being pricked or they don’t know how to walk and see through the darkness. And it’s not always easy to love someone’s thorns or love them when they’re dark side comes out. It has to also be a choice but that’s also actual love and a whole other discussion. lol
However I especially like the quote by by R. Queen. ” Light is easy to love. Show me your darkness.” I’m someone who I’m okay with small talk but I really love and I mean love deeper discussions, topics etc. I love learning about people’s minds, hearts, souls, passions, and fears. It’s easy to love someone when they’re happy, positive, things are going well, etc. But the real challenge and thing I love about loving people is when they’re in the dark. And some people (I admit I fall into this) don’t share their darkness with anyone they keep it to themselves so if they show you, it means they trust you and your special to them. I’m not saying it’s easy to love someone’s darkness and it’s fun I am saying though sometimes we find some people we think are worth maybe getting pricked by the thorns or we want to know the darkness to know them better and to know how to be there for them. Loving someone, truly loving someone is a choice in it’s self not just the warm fuzzy feeling that’s something I’ve learned. And I love how these quotes show this but in a different way at least to me. ❤
I had mentioned I believe that one of my goals is to get better at Youtube with filming, editing, uploading etc. So I decided to set one day I will up load a video instead of a up in the air kind of uploading scheduled. I’m starting it slow and only doing one actual video a week and will upload on Wednesdays. 🙂 If anyone has any types of videos they’d like to see comment them down below I’d love to hear! Here’s the link: Adventure Is Out There Youtube! If you would like to go see the few random videos I’ve already had up or want to checkout when I upload videos. 🙂 I’m not THE most comfortable in front of the camera, my editing skills will slowly get better (we hope lol! xD) and I’m sure a few day’s there will be misses cause life’s funny but I’m really making this a goal. 🙂
I decided to take today to have a kind of lazy day after I organized my dad’s receipts for taxes but multi tasked when I did them and also did a face mask and watched the Lorax (One of my favorites) while I did some of them. 🙂
I also am enjoying some coffee in one of my favorite mugs this morning. ❤
Now that I’ve finished organizing the receipts and the Lorax is over I’ve got one of the Netflix fireplaces on and am listening to my Country playlist on Spotify (I’ve been a bit obsessed with country atm) while talking to one of my best friends. Just taking it easy. I’m thinking of editing the vlogs I’ve somewhat done this past week and maybe posting it for those who would be interested. 🙂 One of my goals for this year is to be better at Youtube both recording things, editing and posting them. 🙂
ALSO PS. I am *loving* this mask my mom got me for Christmas! My face decided to do a type change with this crazy weather and the mask I’ve been able to use twice and it’s SO amazing! Highly recommend it and the brand! You can find them at walmart for rounded $2.00 also the Freeman one’s are really good as well! Just in case you want to pamper your face! 🙂 ❤ Hope you all have a wonderful, lazy or productive Saturday! ❤
I am one of those people who is just REALLY bad at keeping my room organized and clean. It’s not that I don’t try it’s just not one of my strengths. This year I realized how much I was like my dad and this was one of them… lol! My mom like’s to claim she can tell how I’m doing in life by how my room is.. Which in a way makes sense considering the main times I get the motivation to clean/ deep clean my room is when I’m sick or feel like I have no control so I need to control something in my life. haha
After that little randomness I decided when I was sick to have my room clean by Thursday the 5th and I had lost motivation for two day’s and figured that wouldn’t be happening.. Until Thursday I finished cleaning. haha! Now my room is 100% clean besides the small stuff together to go out to the garage. My rooms so clean I’m not sure I know where to find things.. o.o This whole 100% clean room is not normal for me… It’s nice but weird. haha!
Here’s some pictures to prove it is clean… Ps. I also vlogged a little bit of it also which I will be editing sometime soon. 🙂