There are a lot of changes going on in my family’s and my life at the moment. And I am here to tell you some of the updates. I have been trying to figure out how to make a post on Facebook about some of the things that have came up recently in the past few months. But I’ve never been quite sure what or how to say the things that I need to.
Many of you know reading this that my parents have moved about 6 hours away from where they used to be and where I am. That it’s self has been a rough transition. But that is not what I’m here to talk to you or update you on today. For those who don’t know my family is believers in Christ (Other wise known as Christians.) My dad was a pastor for about 7 years almost but recently resigned for the move that was taking place mentioned above. They raised us to try and follow their foot steps and were/are the most amazing Godly people examples and parenting examples. However, at a point I kind of took my own path. Those who know me I’m sure you’re not surprised at this. And in that path I made quite a few unwise, foolish and sinful decisions. But about a month ago I was realizing I needed to turn things back around and strive for the correct path. Shortly after this decision not sure where to start I discovered I was Pregnant in January.
Now, there will be several different responses to this news. Some will judge, some will be disappointed, others will say “I told you so” or “I knew it.” and others will say Nothing is wrong with what I did. The fact is I did do something wrong whether you believe it is, agree or disagree. I did something that is supposed to be within Marriage and I sinned against God, Myself and them. But God is Amazing, Merciful, Gracious, Loving, and Forgiving. And I am so thankful he has forgiven me of my sins and loves me despite the mess I am in because of my bad decisions.
Luke 7:45a “Wherefore I say unto thee, Her sins which are many, are forgiven.”
Psalm 23:3 ” He restoreth my soul; He leadeth me in paths of righteousness for his names sake.”
1 John 1:9 “If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins, and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness. “
2 Corinthians 5:17 “Therefore if any man be in Christ, He is a new creature; old things are passed away; behold all things are become new.”
Paslms 103:12 “As far as the East is from the West, so far hath he removed our transgressions from us.”
I am BEYOND Blessed by a merciful and forgiving God as well as amazing parents who have showed me the same love and Graciousness.
Even though the circumstances are not preferred and came from poor decisions I hope that God can use this, Me and the baby for his Glory some how someway. This life is precious even though it came from the circumstances it did. At 8 weeks it has a heart beat. Sweet, Precious, Healthy and simply amazing. It took my breath away to see it’s heart beat and see it’s little body. And yet people try saying those little heart beats even at 8 weeks or so don’t mean they’re alive or can feel. They’re not considered “Human.” Those who know me know I am Pro Life. I don’t hide the fact I’m against abortion but I wont preach it at people because everyone has their own choice and opinions. But it still amazes me especially with all the abortions new rules and debates going around all over Facebook recently. All lives are precious, every heart beat every little growing organs, fingers, toes, head, and heart beats.
“13 For thou hast possessed my reins: thou hast covered me in my mother’s womb.
14 I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.
15 My substance was not hid from thee, when I was made in secret, and curiously wrought in the lowest parts of the earth.
16 Thine eyes did see my substance, yet being unperfect; and in thy book all my members were written, which in continuance were fashioned, when as yet there was none of them.”
Jeremiah 1:5 “Before I formed you in the womb I knew you,
and before you were born I consecrated you;
I appointed you a prophet to the nations.”
I need Christ more than I ever have before. I will be a single mom. The father by His Own Choice decided not to be involved. And I would appreciate if everyone respects my wishes to not be asked who the dad is, what happened, and cause rumors and make stuff up. But the fact is this little one will be so loved by it’s momma, it’s family, friends and most importantly by Jesus Christ who will love him more than anyone or person ever could or will. It’s comforting to know that through everything that is happening and will that I’ve God him on my side and he will Never leave or forsake me.
1 I will love thee, O Lord, my strength.
2 The Lord is my rock, and my fortress, and my deliverer; my God, my strength, in whom I will trust; my buckler, and the horn of my salvation, and my high tower.
3 I will call upon the Lord, who is worthy to be praised: so shall I be saved from mine enemies.
New beginnings, New adventures, starting a fresh new chapter in life and the correct way. Prayers would be appreciated greatly. Thank you for taking your time for reading this very long post. 💗