To be Honest. . .
Things have taken a turn recently. I can’t sleep or go to sleep till about 3-4 am. And even when I do I don’t sleep well or have a restful sleep because I feel awake even though I’m sleeping. I feel sick or like my body’s trying to fight getting sick. I have no motivation really to do anything besides watch Netflix and eat snacks.
Pretty discouraged with things in life. I have yet to find a job, but I know leaving the past one was the best choice.. I don’t know what direction I’m supposed to be going in or what direction I’m going to be taking or should take. I’ve lost people. I’m hurt. My room is a small mess again. haha And I turn 20 next Monday. Exactly a week from today, and that’s kinda scary. I’m not ready for this amount of commitment to adulting yet. haha
And I’m stumped. I don’t entirely know what to post, what videos to make, where to start in cleaning my room, or life. But I am going to try and be more positive.. Or at least try and see more positive in life. Because I’m alive, I’m breathing, I can see, I can hear, I have almost lived 20 years and I am very blessed.
Life is full of adventures. Some are down hill and fun where we put our hands in the air and yell at the top of our lungs or we dance around while blasting fun loud music. While some are up hill where we’re panting for every breath of air we take or we’re laying in bed or writing while listening to a soft quiet playlist. Either one is an adventure some we just may enjoy more than others but both get us to the places we need to be. Right now I’m sitting on my bed while listening to my Netflix, books, and chill Spotify playlist with my pet cat Cutie. I may try and clean my room a little bit tonight or I may try and go to bed because my stomach’s cramping and I don’t feel well. Lol
Wherever you are in the world, whatever time it is, whatever you’re going through whether it’s a good adventure , not so great, or bad adventure… Know that you always have a friend here for you. Know that it’s a bad day, week or month not a bad life. And that everything will be Okay eventually and you aren’t alone. ❤
“And then I realized, Adventures are the best way to learn.”